Life is a downward spiral of thoughts

And after all these thoughts that rush one's mind and all other things seem to be but a vivid dream today they all come rushing back in. tomorrow is but another day that one must face head on. after all the blood sweat and tears you shed you are but another pawn in life's big game plan, just another pawn.
have you ever stared at yourself in the mirror and just wondered where you would be in the days to come? where do you stand in the the big painting called life? will you ever hear an answer?
Faith may call upon you to believe, but will you believe when you wake up after your slumber from the night before? when the day comes that you do find the meaning then maybe you've lifed life, but until this is so, where do you stand?